Respiros

I want to be devoured by you, chewed up until no bone is left to crack under the force of your molars. Swallow me whole, take my heart, drain it of blood—it has served its purpose—but never let it go. Hold it, even as it grows empty, as the last pulse fades into you.

I want to feel you from the inside, as though I am a new limb, each cell of yours fusing with mine until I stop being separate and become whole. Let me tickle the depths of your throat with the remnants of my physical self. I want to be more than a thought in your mind, more than energy in your veins; I want to seep into every organ, every cell, every hidden part of you. I want you to become as unable to be without me as I am without you.

I wish to feel your pulse, syncing to the same frequency with which I ache for you. To feel our rhythms syncing, our pulses aligned, our breaths merging in ways that make me forget where I end and you begin. To become the iris that sees everything encompassing your being. Drown me in your regrets, your fears—make me rotten if that means I can help you heal. My only purpose is to ease your living, to become the marrow of your bones. For the feeling of closeness, I would trade my autonomy, exchanging it for a taste of freedom found only in you. This is my choice; I keep choosing this, and I want to choose you, over and over.

Let me live inside you. I want to corrupt and alter you, to etch myself into every inch of your DNA, to make you carry me in every fiber of your being. As I sink deeper into your essence, we will fuse, two become one, whole.

Noviembre 2024